Sorry

So I know its been a while since I have written anything (though I don't think anyone is reading this anyway). It has been a really rough few months. It goes from being alright and kind of calm to not alright and chaotic. Tonight though has been interesting. I have been overly emotional/hormonal for the last few months so now that my bc (birth control) is up and am now trying something new they have calmed down. To the point where something actually kind of has to happen to set me off. So I was in a pretty good mood all day and when the boyfriend came home I was going through things and all chatty about how the day had gone and discovered the list of exercise classes that I want to take which made me happy. I missed the deadline for this group of classes but one of the new ones I want to try has a drop in fee that I thought I pay tonight. So I told my Boyfriend that I was going to try and stop in tonight for one of the cycling classes since my leg was giving me fits, See I fell at work the other day and now that I have started to walk with weights its a little tender,and I didn't thinki I would be able to go to the kickboxing one that I had attended before (awesome class highly recommend). Where I got the snide laugh and a good luck with that. So I muttered under my breath as I walked away (ya bad bad me) that well maybe I shouldn't do anything since obviously I shouldn't try things. So now we are not talking and thats perfectly fine with me. Because...I have had it with the negativity. I started a new diet and asked if he could be supportive because its kind of a hard one because you feel like you are starving all the time where upon I got the response that I shouldn't bother because I'm not going to get the results I want (I have lost 10 pounds thatnk you). He wasn't supportive at all untill I gushed how the guys I work with (winter work rocks!!) were very supportive and such then the attitude changes. Next came the working out so that I could pass the pack test and do the required 90 days on the fire line where it was your not going to pass the mental block because you don't have the self confidence to actually do it. Now all the sudden its a interest in how far I walked with how many pounds everytime I go work out. I just don't know how to express how much I wish he would pick to either be supportive or not. Along with what he wants from me. Rent is 875 a month I pay 500 leaving 375 for him but have not paid electricity because the way I figure I am paying 125 extra that should cover my share and I also pay his insurance and what food I can afford but then I recieved the snide comments last month like I am not paying enough but not once has he said that I needed to pay more. I am not a mind reader if I need to pay more then you need to say something. Am I wrong? If so please let me know.